The power of our unfettered words

As someone who has created many vision boards, both collaged and on Pinterest, who has manifested a plethora of things (including Hector the husband), and who loves journaling and noticing cyclical patterns… I still find myself pleasantly surprised.

Surprised with lessons I thought I had learned, but clearly hadn’t. Surprised with goals I thought were new but are easily found in the pages of old notebooks. Surprised by words and themes swirling through my story over and over again until I finally stop long enough to notice them.

A couple of weeks ago I said I wasn’t ready to set any goals or choose a word of the year. I could have, but it would have been ego-driven, mind-made and not embodied in the slightest.

What’s funny is the word(s) I eventually landed on (after many scribbled morning pages) is “messy hands.”

I have a deep urge to create with my hands in the physical word this year. To print out my novel and physically place it around a room and scratch across it with a red pen. To submerge my hands in paint and smear them across a canvas. To reconnect with my deep love of pottery. To be messy again. To create something from nothing.

So what’s funny about that? The picture above is one I chose from a free photo website years ago to embody the creativity and playfulness of inner spring, or the follicular phase. 

Today I was looking for a messy hands picture for this email and found it again. I like to think I’m original, but my subconscious seems to predict my future self or know my true self on a deeper level than even I imagined.

Have you encountered any weirdly poetic moments like this before? Have you chosen a word of the year or set a daring goal you want to share? Have you had an aha moment in the depths of your wintering cave?

Leave a comment below or share them with me on Instagram. I’d love to hear from you.

Lauren x

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Cycle charting is the practice of journaling how you’re feeling mentally, physically and spiritually each day with the hope of discovering monthly patterns in your behaviour and emotions, as dictated by your menstrual cycle.


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